Hati

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Semasa berkunjung di rumah Mudir Madrasah Al-Khairat Kuching yang tidak pernah berputus asa berdakwah di Sarawak selama 30 tahun iaitu Habib Muhammad Bin Alawi Al-Attas (gambar: 2 dari kanan) beliau ringan mulut berceloteh tentang falsafah hidup di sebalik pelbagai ciptaan Allah. Syoknya pergi beraya ke rumah orang-orang soleh, perut dengan hati sekali yang terisi. :)

Sumber: Pondok Habib

Antara tausiyahnya yang paling saya ingati ialah

Cili itu rasanya? tanya beliau.

Pedas~ jawab kanak-kanak riang. Hehe.

Pernah belah cili dan tengok bijinya?

Pernah~

Bentuknya seperti apa?

Mm? Selama ni main potong-potong je tak beri perhatian pun dekat biji cili yang kecil molek tu. -_- 

Bentuknya seperti hati! *senyum* Kepedasan cili itu umpama ujian hidup di dunia dan di sebalik setiap ujian ada kasih sayang Allah mengiringi seperti banyaknya biji cili yang berbentuk hati itu. 

Nanges.

Nanges sebab asyik lupa. Selepas dengar tausiyah ni pun esoknya merungut lagi lagi dan lagi. Kecewa lagi lagi dan lagi. Tak bersyukur lagi lagi dan lagi. Dulu bukan main doa nak Allah bagi ingat Allah setiap masa. Bila Allah bagi ujian silih berganti macam marathon supaya boleh ingat Allah setiap masa sebab memang fitrah hamba masa susahnya paling ingat Allah tak redha pulak. 

Tini, Tini. 

Tolong doakan saya. Semoga dengan doa kalian, Allah memudahkan urusan kalian di dunia & akhirat. :)

Angels

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

I have 2 nieces, both of the same age - 4 years old named Ain and Mirza. They went to the same school, Tadika ABIM Semariang. My aunt (their grandma) told me a short-yet-it-happened-to-make-me-LOLing-non-stop conversation between Mirza's and her mom (my cousin, Kak Nana): 

Kak Nana: On the evening you'll be attending kelas Fardhu AIN okay? 

Mirza: *with innocent and face full of jealousy* Why why it has to be Fardhu AIN~? Mirza also wants Fardhu MIRZA. 

Hahahahhahaha. It happened to be she was not knowing what's Fardhu Ain means yet at that time. Let us pray these two beautiful angels of mine and her aunt will become as solehah as Ummul Mukminin~ 

p/s: Subhanallah, I swear those little angels could melt your sorrow away with their adorable-ness, honesty and innocent acts.  

4 Temperaments

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

Last Sunday, after spending too much time indoor I started to feel nauseous. Fidgeting and rolling here and there oh not really rolling duh, I'm not really that light to roll here and there easily. Well, its a so called Sanguine Syndrome. :P 

Ah well, I particularly write this post to recommend a book which I bought at Kinokuniya! Oh this place is heaven~ Its books, floor, bench, staff and cool-book & map-machine wohoo I have more to say but lets keep it simple: Kinokuniya is awesome! It even has cafe yeah I know MPH already has one since forever but MPH is too far from my place *whyyyy you people close your shop in Bukit Bintang and I only knew about this last 3 months even though the shop was closed 2 years ago after spending 2 hours looking for that store and end up of buying a skirt. tragic isn't?*

Enough on the 'brief' intro about Kino. 

Now presenting to you guys, tadaaaaa: 

PERSONALITY PLUS BY FLORENCE LITTAUER! I have been eyeing for this book since last 6 months and usually end up of not buying it as I have spent money over other things for that month. Luckily, during my visit, Kino was offering discount for few books and apparently PP was one of them! When I read this book, I felt like I was glued on the bench. I couldn't move even if i want to. LOL. 

Let me make a short summary on this book:

- Once you read the name I am pretty sure it rings a bell. Its a self-improving, motivation and a bit of psychological. Don't get trick by the title, its not containing heavy contents. This woman Florence really makes me feel like " I am glad there's someone think and act like me. Hence, I am normal~" Being a Sanguine/Choleric type she tells lots of stories and I even imagine herself being so chirpy and bubbly telling me each of her story. 

- Basically this book elaborates more on the 4 Temperaments Personality interpretation by Hippocrates, Greek's physician (460–370 BC). The picture below will give you an introduction to the 4 Temperaments.

After looking at the pictures, who do you think you are? The bubbly Sanguine :3 or strong willed Choleric V^_^Vor is it perfectionist Melancholy B) or cool Phlegmatic O-O ? You can possess a combination of these. To know better, buy this book. I don't really have strength to type too many words here. Hehe. What I want to highlight here is it stress on how to learn to accept ourselves and others. ^_^

- Besides, she even share on how to polish our strengths and overcome our weaknesses. This really helps me to actually control myself. Haha. Before reading her book, I have started to practise some of her advices and alhamdulillah they really working well on me. This makes me wanting so bad to meet her in person.  >_< 

Why am I promoting this book? 

The main reason is I want you guys to feel good about yourself and others like what I feel. Good thing is meant to be shared isn't it? Andd actually the other thing is this book can be useful in dakwah too. Tell me how can you preach or doing dakwah to someone which you can't even accept themselves as they are. So thats my point. 

You got what I mean? I am sure you are. B)

Ecstatic.

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam~ Masha Allah, its been a long long time since I've scribble something on this blog. Pheww~ I am ecstatic to learn the fact that I managed to finish my third year in the coolest way ever. :D Seriously third year is equal to MADNESS! I am VERY GLADDDDDD Allah let my friends and I to survive this super hectic life. 

Let me make you guys clear why it is equal to MADNESS. Hoho. Classes often ended at 730pm, went through jam from Cheras to KL for like 1 and half hour or more before be at home at 9-10pm. During clinical, I went out at 630 or 7 am depending on hospital location then going back at 530-730 pm daily. After do whatever I had to do, as early as 830 or 900 pm I went to bed. Those were my routine for semester one. Not to mentioned sleepless night and the worst of all was exams 6 DAYS IN ROW! YES, 6 DAYS IN ROW WITHOUT GAP *faint*. 

In the middle of first semester I noticed that it was full of tears, negative aura wandering around.  I tried very hard to juggle everything, to cope up with everything somehow I failed. Semester 1 was the time which I  could tell I am in depression! I just do not know how to keep everything in order. I felt 'lost', being out of the orbit, not on the right track.

At one time where I felt hopeless, tired and super duper stress enough I asked Allah, 

Why am I being like this o Allah? 

Why my life is sooooooooo miserable? I don't think I can carry on o Allah.  

Did I possibly do anything wrong?

Allah's answer my prayer by showing me one by one what was actually going so wrong. 

I DID NOT GO TO TA'LIM *majlis ilmu*. 

I LEFT ALL THE DIZKR I USED TO RECITE.

I DID NOT PERFORM SOLAT ON TIME.

I DID NOT MAKE A DUA' AFTER SOLAT. 

And lots of other things! SO, THE ANSWER FOR THIS MISERABLE LIFE WAS I LOST MY CONNECTION WITH ALLAH! 

I admit I was overwhelmed with dunya matters that I forgot to spare sometime to attend ta'lim and do routine I usually did before this. Allah the most Merciful gave me this miserable life to guide me back to him. T_T Lucky me Allah still has His mercy for me to be on the right track again. 

***

Right before second semester began, I prayed to Allah,

to keep me in the right track and to please give me strength to fight nafs, 

to let me attend ta'lim at least twice a day,

to always tune in to IKIM.fm for any talk or anything which reminds Him all the time through thick or thin

Besides, I started to make a DOs and DON'Ts list for the upcoming hectic life to ensure I use my time wisely .  Alhamdulillah yeay~! Allah answer my prayer again~! To make my second semester life lively again Allah sent me few friends who accompanied me to ta'lim and maulid. They all went to maulid and ta'lim before I joined them, I was totally my fault I did not keep in touch to know what's happening around me. *palm on face* 

Even though second semester was 2 times busier and tougher than the first one, I managed to go through everything calmly with less complain ^_^ V . There were lots of time I felt so hopeless and bad things came up but Allah gave me the strength to carry on with everything with smile :) . 

Yes, alhamdulillah I could smile and felt so calm even though I had 3 weeks of exams with 13 exams (paper, osce, ospe, viva) with ' exam marathon' for 6 days in row (it was supposed to be 9 days) plus having dengue fever during exam week. 

As I was hospitalized, my marathon stop for a while for 3 days. I am enjoying myself resting in HKL, meeting new people, having conversation with nurses and 'neighbours'. LOL. Then, I energetically continue my marathon right after I was admitted which still not reach its end though as my last paper will be next week. Taking exam alone is cool. :D Its only me and the lecturer and one university staff I guess. I can't wait for that moment to come~ 

***

As a summary, *a so called-summary hoho*

(1)

I would like to share one surah to sum up this whole lengthy entry: 

Say, "O My servants who have transgressed against themselves [by sinning], do not despair of the mercy of Allah . Indeed, Allah forgives all sins. Indeed, it is He who is the Forgiving, the Merciful." (Az-Zumar:53)

(2)

As reminder to particularly to me and you *if there's anyone reading. hoho*

IF THERE ARE FLAWS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP WITH ALLAH, OTHER THINGS WILL NEVER GO RIGHT. Your life will be miserable and be in constant worry about every single thing. Why? Because when we forget Allah in everything we do, we will tend to rely on ourselves. We think we can do this that perfectly because of our efforts. When we start to rely on ourselves everything won't go right peeps. This is solely because we human, His servant are weak! We often being control by syaitan, nafs. We tend to make wrong decision. 

One thing about relying on ourselves simply means we are being ARROGANT towards Allah, our Lord. Its like we are indirectly telling Allah; we do not need Him to interfere with our lives.  We know what to do *even though we don't*. T_T Allah knows that sometimes we did this because we are weak, we forget, we lost the fight with our nafs, that's why He lead us to the right path and accept our taubat even though we have made like mountain of sins. T_T 

(3)

Let us be grateful for anything Allah has fated to be happen in our lives and try to find hikmah beyond the good (nikmat) and bad (musibah) things which pop up. Yes, in both good and bad things. Allah let things happen in life for some reasons which sometimes we are blinded by our sins that we can't see or understand them. Together we pray may Allah grant us to let us keep faith in him through thick and thin and hoping that he will guide us to find and see the  hikmah for those good and bad things, particularly the bad one. (: 

Pen off. 

Wonderful Life!

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam! 

Another awesome week have passed! Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli nikmat~ Met wonderful people at Putrajaya Hospital. Yes, I am doing my clinical for 5 weeks this holiday. Last week I was stationed at Ultrasound Room. On my third day, I met and introduced myself to the Head of Department for she was not around on my first day. 

"I have 21 days to be completed in 5 weeks because of the holidays and all" 

"So, during holidays you don't have to come still you have to complete those 21 days, how do you find it?"

"Good, its okay, more weeks more cases I'll encounter"

"Well good then. As a student you have to SACRIFICE. When you are working, at that time then you can relax." 

Source

There was time I felt so unlucky for not having holiday as other friends had. After some time, I told myself "I should be happy and positive! Hospital is a great place to meet loads of people from various background. Sure I can learn valuable & fun things from them."

Alhamdulillah a week has passed by, He let me met wonderful doctors, patients, radiographers and nurses! They were being good to me and my friends. Thought us this and that. Trust me to scan patient~! Haha. Thank you so much Dr Michelle.*hugs*

Be positive then others will follow you. (:

 “Aku adalah seperti sangkaan hambaKu terhadap Aku. Dan Aku bersamanya tatkala Dia mengingatiKu. Sekiranya dia mengingatiKu dalam dirinya, maka Aku akan mengingatinya dalam diriKu. Sekiranya dia mengingatiKu di khalayak ramai, maka Aku akan mengingatinya di depan khalayak ramai yang lebih mulia(para malaikat dan nabi-nabi). Jika hambaKu mendekatiKu sejengkal, Aku akan mendekatinya sehasta. Jika hambaKu mendekatiKu sehasta, Aku akan mendekatinya sedepa. Jika hambaKu mendekatiKu dalam keadaan berjalan, Aku akan mendekatiNya dalam keadaan berlari(cepat).” Hadith Qudsi Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim. Hadith nombor 59 dalam Kitab Al-Wafi karangan Imam An-Nawawi.

I am a Muslim, said he.

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

His name is HT. 

He is a typical Chinese guy. Sepet eyes. Spiky stylish hair. By fate, we were in the same class. In our first Pendidikan Islam class he was in! My friends and I were shocked and puzzled. 

“I am a Muslim” said he.

His family, until now not know he is the Believer. He went to church for Sunday prayer. He only got chance to pray when he was away from home, said he narrated to us during our first class.

In matriculation, he took the risk to declare his faith openly. Went to masjid. Fasting. It was my favorite to had discussion and debate with him about Islam and the comparison between Christian and Islam. Apparently, he knew vast Islamic knowledge than I did. Shame on me, being a Muslim from birth and take this hidayah He gave me for granted. Eye and mind-opener he was and always be.

May Allah bless him, ease everything. My pray is always with you my friend. Always insha Allah. 

Mak cik-mak cik

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salamm.

A few hectic days had passed by. Alhamdulillah I am still survived!Haha. Had an ultrasound OSCE on 31st. Then the very next day if it was not public holiday I am pretty sure I will have another exam. On 2nd January had OSCE Specialized Radiography. And todayyy Ultrasound written paper. Next week, the real battle begin! Yeah, this weeks' were just warming up I would say. From Monday to Friday full with Viva, OSCE and written papers. May Allah ease everything! No point of whining or complaining. Just go through everything. :D

After finished with Ultrasound paper just now, I went to shop few supplements from Cosway. Yes, kind of mak cik mak cik type isn't it? LOL. Last year, I realized how I am being so lemah longlai and all. Soooo, I bought multivitamin. But because it was a synthetic one so I stop taking it. Then one day in October I went to Lowyat with a friend and we sesat-sesatkan diri at Times Square. There I met this Cosway branch. Know few friends who used their products and they gave me pretty convincing remarks so I memak cik-mak cikkan diri ke Cosway to search for organic multivitamin. Well, teenagers don't really into this Cosway thingy kan? That is why I changed my blog name to Chronicles of a Lady. :D Tipu semata-mata. 

Alhamdulillah, after taking organic multivitamin --> Spirulina and salmon fish oil for DHA and EPA --> Supa Epa I feel better! No more diarrhea. More energetic and fresh~ 

For my birthday present kindly please buy me organic multivitamin or supplements.Haha. See how mak cik mak cik I have became. 

Ah, let me show you few pictures I have taken during my short guilty-pleasure-escape before I stop and start to date with books again. 

Cook book is the first thing I will grab of course in the bookstore. Since I have no more extra money left for this month because of the supplements, taking their photo will do lah. And, I bought myself a new planner~ Big and I can write things sebesar-besar alam which will replace my hanger-A4- calendar. Hehe. 

Okay, I should stop. May Allah bless us. (:

ARTWORK

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salammm.

Hello~I am being so active blogging lately because I believe writing is one of the ways to neutralize all the negative feelings. 

At 2 pm, I practiced on abdominal ultrasound as preparation for OSCE on 2nd January *pengsan because 3 will be the writing paper*! What an exciting & special moment because I scanned my own body! Hahaha. This was because my partner came late because she got things to be settled down. Struggling using both hands, one hand holding probe (the scanner) the other control the panel. Alhamdulillah, Allah gave us pair of hands. I couldn't imagine of doing things with one hand. 

Ultrasound is one of my favorite subject! Yeah there is nothing easy in this world. Ultrasound is an operator-depending modality not like other imaging devices (MRI, CT) which means it is depending 100% on the person who operates it. Must be good in anatomy, imagination and of course being skillful. Anatomy helps in identifying the region you want to scan while imagination probably helps to identity what's structure is in the image because what you see is totally different than image in anatomy books. The skills, anybody can learn as long as you have patience in you. Being patient is the hardest part for me. So it's kind of training for me la to be patient. *(insert Take That song) Have a little patient yeahh.*

Artwork. 

Tadaaa! Say Subhanallah. They are right liver & kidney :D . Told ya they look totally different from the textbook. These are not mine. I cannot do the editing with the latest image because of the format. 

Oh have to stop right away to do my case study. Next Monday will be the presentation on Clinical Radiotherapy. *nervousss banget when thinking of  the Q&A session. GULP.* Make dua for me peeps. May Allah bless us. (:

I AM SHERLOCKED!

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam. Reading novel after long haul hiatus on reading other books than my textbooks. =_="

 A year. Yes, i think i bought this book last year in MPH, Midvalley. Read just few pages after bought it. =_=""

After watched 2 series of  BBC Sherlock's few weeks ago, I AM SHERLOCKED! *Eh eh tipuuu. Mula dari sekolah dulu lagi~*

well there were only 3 episodes for each series, so i didn't wasted too much time to finish all of them in few hours. 

 "At present, I cannot spare energy and nerve force for digestion" That is so ME. I totally ignored dietitian advice to NOT to skip meal to maintain my weight and health. 

Final is less than a month! Well, it is a habit of mine to read novel at this particular time. To avoid some sort of 'traffic jam' in my mind. Keke. May Allah assists us in the exam. (:

One bright sunny day

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Source

On one bright & hot sunny day in which using umbrella gave no effect at all, I was forced to walk slowly by my skirt <== (which I call skirt sopan because of its A-shape. LOL) along Kpg Baru road, off to campus. Dalam hati merungut-rungut sebab nak cepat & terasa leceh sebab kena pergi kampus semata-mata nak hantar buku log & laporan klinikal. Dari jauh saya nampak budak lelaki yang bawak beg dan buku. Jadi, oh oh makin laju langkah sebab takut adik tu menyapa & nak tanya saya nak beli buku ke tak <=== jahat kan?. Disebabkan skirt sopan adik tu pun berjaya berjalan seiringan dengan saya. 

"Kak kak, nak tengok buku ni tak?"

"Eh, takpe dik. Akak nak cepat ni."

"Tak beli takpe. Tengok je dulu."

Tengok kejap: Buku ***** CINTA. LOL. Tak ingat apa nama tapi ada tulis CINTA. 

"Takpe lah dik. Terima kasih." 

Adik tu senyum je. Saya pun terus jalan lepas tu toleh kejap dan tanya " Adik umur berapa tahun?"

"15 tahun." 

"Adik kerja leklok."

Saya menoleh lagi & rasa kagum melihat betapa bersemangatnya adik tu meneruskan langkah.

Pastu terus rasa nak nangis kerana banyak sebab:

1) He is only fifteen. Yet he had to do that kind of work. Brought a bag with full of books under bright sun without umbrella. Mesti hidup dia susah. T_T Tak ramai yang sanggup buat kerja macam tu. 

2) Betapa tak bersyukurnya saya. Merungut-rungut sebab kena berjalan 10 minit je pun nak ke kampus. Bukan perlu keluar duit ke apa pun. Bahkan kena bayar untuk belajar tapi masih lagi MALAS & TAK BERSYUKUR <=== Indikator masalah hati. Sob sob. 

3)Alhamdulillah~Rasa terharu & bersyukur sebab Allah temukan saya dengan adik tu supaya saya berhenti merungut dan belajar untuk jadi hambanya yang bersyukur. Betapa besarnya kasih sayang Allah. 

Kesimpulannya, sama-sama kita mintak dengan Allah semoga kita jadi orang bersyukur dengan yang sedikit. Sebab orang bersyukur dengan yang sedikit akan mampu untuk bersyukur dengan sesuatu yang banyak. (: 

PS: Keep on praying for Palestine, Syria, Rohingya people and our sisters and brothers. May Allah shower us with his ultimate love and blessings. 

WISHLIST

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

What's on top of your list you want to do after pay-day or for student, after JPA/PTPTN/scholarships comes out?

New handbag?

Foods!

New cloth?

Books~

I-pong 5

...

Have you ever put 'to get  Human Papillomavirus (HPV) vaccines injection' in your list? If not, you better put it now. Once a life time is enough to protect yourself and your loved ones from HPV-related diseases such as cervical cancer, vlvar cancer, vaginal cancer and genital warts . All you need are only 3 doses. Yeah, it might be costly particularly for student but when it comes to your own health and future you better takes this thing seriously. Mulalah menabung sikit-sikit insha Allah lama-lama penuh tabung.

This is the rate for National Cancer of Malaysian Society (NGO) <=== Place where I done my clinical last month:

Cervical cancer vaccines

• Gardasil
  • (given in 3 interval months, at 0, 2 and 6mths)
  • RM 280 per dose OR RM 750 per package (full upfront payment for 3 doses)
• Cervarix
  • (given in 3 interval months, at 0, 1 and 6mths)
  • RM 200.00 per dose OR RM550 per package (full upfront payment for 3 doses)

You can do a survey on other hospitals or health institution as well to make a comparison of the rates offered. Or it might be covered by your insurance.

For those who are 18 this year UNTUNGLAH~ because you can get it for FREE! F to the R to double E. I don't see any reason for you to neglect this golden opportunity. Visit Nur Sejahtera clinic nearby now!

...

I have seen before my eyes women with cervical cancer since I have to treat them. How they suffer from the cancer itself and the radiation side effects. Bleedings, diarrhea and all.  :'( I have always being in overwhelming sadness every time I see them. At the same time masha Allah I am amazed to see how strong there are to keep smiling to everyone and keep their life going on.

THIS IS WHY I PUT HPV VACCINES ON TOP 5 OF MY NEW YEAR (Hijrah and 2013) WISHLIST. SO HOWS YOURS? IT IS NEVER TO LATE TO ADD IT IN YOUR LIST TOO. TOGETHER WE PREVENT HPV RELATED CANCERS. (: 

For more information, click this link Cervical Cancer by National Cancer of Malaysian Society.

PS: HPV can infect men too. The effect will be different from women of course due to difference in anatomy/organs we have. I emphasis it on women because 8 out of 10 women will get HPV infection in their life time!
(Source: National Immunization Program, Centers fr Disease Control and Prevention.Human Papillomavirus.Epidemiol and Prevent of Vaccine-Preventable Disease.2008;10(2):283-293)

Isn't it lovely to have a tissue with a HPV campaign on it?(: Setiap kali ambik tisu setiap kali jugak lah rasa 'kena kumpul duit~!' supaya cepat-cepat boleh ambik vaccine ni.

Sekufu

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

"Dan saya juga telah jalankan hampir 98 peratus tugas yang sepatutnya dijalankan oleh seorang suami dan ayah.Itulah harga yang saya perlu bayar kerana mempunyai tile DR." 

" Saya cuma mahu hidup yang tenang di sisi seorang suami yang menerima saya sebagai isteri, teman setia, penyejuk di mata dan penawar di hati. Saya tidak mahu dipandang sebagai lawan, pesaing, rival atau competitor."

I found this excerpt from Dr Fauziah Mohd Noor's FB. Pensyarah saya sendiri pun pernah bercerita tentang seorang suami yang mensabotaj projek master isterinya sendiri kerana tidak mahu isterinya lebih tinggi dari dirinya. Inilah sebabnya kenapa saya menyokong ==> perlu sekufu dalam perkahwinan. Tak kisah la dari sudut mana yang kita sendiri rasakan perlu. Bagi saya erkara yang sangat penting ialah cara berfikir dan cara hidup yang perlu sekufu. :D  Dan kena ingat untuk letakkan agama di hadapan baru nilai yang lain. 

"Dikahwini wanita itu (untuk dijadikan isteri) kerana empat perkara iaitu harta kekayaannya,keturunannya, kecantikannya dan agamanya. Maka utamakanlah (dalam pemilihanmu itu) wanita yang kuat beragama, nescaya sejahtera hidupmu”

(Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim).

Food-o-graphy

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam. Its Food-o-graphy timeee! Ohh how I miss to watch Jamie Oliver cooking showww when looking at these foods. 

1) Egg-o-pita: I made this for dinner. Sometimes for breakfast too. 

Ingredients: Pita bread, egg, boneless chicken, mixed herbs, lettuce, white pepper

2) Siew Pau & Chicken Pie: Their crust were of different texture but inside both have BBQ chicken (I assume because it was black but no taste of black pepper). RM 1.80 each if I'm not mistaken. 

3) Big Cookie: From Vanilla Orchid Bakery, Kampung Baru. Located inside Nasi Lemak Malaya's cafe. I ate this in 2 days because it was big. RM2.80. 

4) Cheese Steamed-Not-Baked Rice: Hoho. This one I made it myself. No oven, so I steamed it. :P 

Ingredients: Rice, tomatoes, garlic, onion, cheese, chicken slices

5) Pulut Ice Cream: Mouth watering and so cheap! RM 2.00 for a full cup of ice cream. You can choose vanilla or durian flavor. For me of course I chose vanilla. 

6) Salmon Baked Rice with Creamy Sauce: Alhamdulillah! Scrumptious~ The salmon and its plate were enormous. KLCC Food Court, RM 18.00.

7) Wafer & Ice Cream: Bought by Izzah Iman! Sedap, but it was so pricey for its size I would say. RM 5.20 okay. Makan kat kafe fakulti baru RM 2.50. Menu yang tak wujud yang saya 'request' dekat akak kafe. LOL. 

Nasib baik klinikal kat Hospital Tung Shin yang jauh dan kena jalan kaki setiap hari. Ada la jugak exercise kan. Hoho. 

p/s: MAKAN BIAR HABIS. Jangan membazir. :D 

High Tech Era

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Alhamdulillah, minggu lepas Allah beri kekuatan untuk ke Majlis Ta'lim Darul Murtadza lagi! *grinn* Sebab tadi duduk depan sangat dan bunyi macam bergema sikit jadi tak boleh nak catch banyak benda. -_- Satu jam lepas tu baru pindah ke belakang sikit dan boleh dengar lebih jelas.

Tapi, ramai budak-budak comel yang bila tengok rasa macam nak bawak balik & hilang fokus kejap. Sempat senyum sana, senyum sini. Main kereta budak soleh yang berbaju merah. He was the one who started to distract me with his cute cars. <=== Sebenarnya salah sendiri. Human. Suka carik salah orang. LOL. Usha budak kat depan, tepi dan belakang. -_-

Oh Tini what are you doing! Come all the way to Masjid Muadz to play around. Great! <=== Marah diri sendiri. Jadi terasa insaf & fokus balik.

Alhamdulillah I am so lucky to be born in this high technology era because tadaaa, just simply go to www.darulmurtadza.com and download the last week's ta'lim video. I never regret that I did not get much during the ta'lim because of some reasons which I couldn't control it because it just happened. Redha saja. 

"Alah kalau macam tu baik tengok streaming dan tak payah datang. Berhujan ribut. Jam lagi."<==== Tiba-tiba suara jahat datang.

To suara jahat: Be in that place itself than watching streaming is not the same. Still, even though I couldn't pay attention or hear much the barakah was what i got insha Allah. Malaikat pun datang, orang-orang soleh/hah pun ramai yang hadir mana tak berkatnya :D . Well, every step you take to majlis ta'lim will be counted. The very moment you sit in majlis ta'lim you will feel greatt! refresh and over excitement sparks like colourful imaginary fireworks over your head. <=== applicable just for me i think for the fireworks part. 

Azam untuk minggu yang seterusnya, carik spot yang terbaik dan fokus. 

Ahh, before I stop a simple reminder to all, 

TOMORROW IS 9 ZULHIJJAH (HARI ARAFAH)!

 *actually dah 9 Zulhijjah pun sebab dah masuk Maghrib hoho*  

Jom la puasa ramai-ramai. (: Kenapa nak puasa? Sebab, sabda Rasulullah S.A.W.,

"Puasa hari Arafah (9 Zulhijjah) dapat 

menebus dosa setahun yang lalu 

dan setahun yang akan datang..."

Tawaran yang menarik kan kan? 

And, lastly tadaa: 

"Run for your life"

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.


Salam~

Tadaa, i'm back! after a few month of missing in action. :P I am busy with clinical after a month of holy-days  in Kuching. I was posting to Selayang Hospital. The radiographers, OT staffs, orthophedic doctors, nurses and other staffs are very nice. :D Rasa macam tak nak habis klinikal je.

So people, let me share a little bit of my experience in Selayang. Maybe something which is very very very very important for the public to know. Oh kay. Let see, I am pretty sure almost every one (if i have any reader.haha.) of you have gone for x-ray examination before so these are the things which you should know:

No 1: "Mommy, tell them I am in here*stomach*"

If you are PREGNANT or suspected to be pregnant, please please inform the radiographer/doctor in charge before the x-ray procedure is done especially for x-ray of your stomach area and below it i mean reproductive area/kawasan peranakan.

Why?
X-ray can cause damage to your fetus/baby-to-be DNAs which in turn will cause any abnormalities to your future baby.

No 2. Run for your life!

*Sentiasa nak catchy je tajuk kan. Hoho.*
If you see any mobile x-ray machine around like this one;

don't run yet. :P Run ehem walking is better la because you are in hospital :P at least 2 meter away if there is an x-ray procedure that will be carried out. A radiographer will tell you to go away from that place or he/she may simply ask you to stay behind him/her. Ala, beratur ala-ala main kereta api masa kecik. The radiographer is like a lead shield who act as hero/-in who sacrificing their life for you. Chewahhh. He/she will be wearing a heavy lead gown which act as a shield and the gown will absorb the radiation.

Why?
'I don't care about that radiation thingy la. Bahaya sangat kee. Tanah, matahari pun bagi radiasi apa. Tak pulak you lari'

Bagi yang single lagi atau dalam umur yang boleh mengandung:
Hello~ Senang cerita, kalau awak nak ada anak awak main jauh-jauh. Dengan jarak yang sangat sangat dekat dengan sumber radiasi macam-macam boleh jadi dalam sel-sel tubuh kita.

Radiation is something that we can't see but it maybe cause catastrophic effect to your DNAs and cells or to your decedents.

No.3 I am not married yet!

I am not talking about myself. Keke. People, if you are in a child-bearing age (male & female / married or not yet) and you have to do an x-ray in any parts of your body please ask for a gonad shield which looks like this:

The radiographer will cover your reproductive area with this for any x-ray procedure (hand x-ray, foot x-ray, shoulder etc) except if you are to x-ray stomach area and the reproductive area itself because this will obscure organs that the doctor want to see.

Why?
Reproductive area is the one of the most sensitive area to radiation because of the ovum and sperm are there and they are important for reproduction. Besides, our eyes also sensitive to radiation that is why when people getting older their visions are no longer good because of cosmic radiation from sun and etc.

Itu saja. Pen off.

Selamat Menunaikan Solat Fardhu Maghrib! Sama-sama le kita cuba untuk solat awal di awal waktu. (:

Biasa-biasa

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

"Jangan merasa diri kita lebih mulia dari orang lain. Ini tidak bermaksud kita anggap diri kita rendah atau rasa 'inferior' sehingga hilang keyakinan diri."  -Prof Dr Muhaya-

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"Yang ni ha nak jadi doktor. Tanyalah akak ni apa yang patut" *Muka bahagia*

"Nak jadi doktor ni, bla bla bla........Anak makcik yang lelaki umur berapa?"

"16 tahun, tingkatan 4. Anak Mak Cik yang lelaki ni minat bidang biasa-biasa sahaja." *Tone suara rendah, kurang berminat nak bercerita*

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Masa saya di sekolah dulu hampir seluruh sekolah ada cita-cita yang sama. Kalau tak doktor, jurutera, arkitek, akauntan. Doktor, jurutera, arkitek, akauntan. Doktor, jurutera, arkitek, akauntan.

Kalau anda tanya saya kenapa nak jadi doktor masa zaman muda-mudi dulu.

Jeng jeng, jawapannya mudah, sebab gaji dan kerja doktor ni dipandang mulia! Sekian terima kasih. Apabila sudah matang pemikirannya, dah kenal erti niat, tahu keutamaan hidup sebagai Muslim barulah rasa tak patut sungguh aku belajar sebab gaji & darjat semata-mata. Sob sob. T_T

Tutup kisah gaji & darjat. Kita buka kisah bidang biasa-biasa sahaja. 

Bagi saya tiada istilah bidang biasa-biasa dan bidang yang luarbiasa. Jadi guru,chef, mekanik, juruteknik ke janji kerja halal & buat sungguh-sungguh kerja kita kerana Allah. Jangan kita mudah memandang rendah kepada orang lain kerana pelabelan yang kita cipta. Setiap pekerjaan ada kelebihannya masing-masing. Seorang doktor kepakarannya dalam bidang kesihatan. Mekanik pakar dalam membaiki kereta, mesin dan lain-lain. Bayangkanlah kalau semua orang jadi doktor, akauntan, jurutera dan tiada yang mahu menjadi mekanik, juruteknik habislah~ kereta dan mesin yang rosak dibuang dan beli yang baru, rosak beli baru. Bertimbunlah besi buruk di Malaysia. Tsk tsk.

Kesimpulannya, hormati orang di sekeliling kita tanpa mengira pangkat dan hartanya. Senyumlah kepada Mak Cik 'Cleaner' sepertimana kita senyum apabila bertembung dengan pensyarah kita. (:

Jika masih lagi merasa 'tinggi' , tanyakan pada hati "Apakah Allah menilai hamba-hamba-Nya berdasarkan tingginya pangkat, banyaknya harta dan status?"

Kalau jawapannya YA. Pastinya hati sedang bermasalah.

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Semasa di matrikulasi dahulu, saya mempunyai kenalan yang belajar dalam jurusan Sains Fizikal. Dari awal tahun sehingga selesai kuliah di matrik dia dihantui oleh desakan ibu bapa yang mahu dirinya menyambung pelajaran di dalam bidang Perubatan. Kira-kira satu semester sahaja yang berbaki, dia berhenti dan menyambung pelajaran di Russia dalam bidang Perubatan mengikut kehendak ibu bapanya.

Sudah banyak kali saya berjumpa dengan mereka yang tersepit di antara pilihan ibu bapa dan pilihan sendiri.

Saya faham, ibu bapa mahu yang terbaik untuk anak-anaknya. Cuma, berikanlah peluang kepada anak-anak untuk menentukan bidang apa yang diminati oleh anak-anak. Buang pelabelan bidang luar biasa atau biasa-biasa. Raikan minat mereka dan sentiasa doakan agar dipermudahkan urusan mereka menuntut ilmu dan seterusnya boleh berbakti kepada ummah dengan ilmu yang dipelajari.

Untuk adik-adik yang mempunyai masalah seperti ini, marah, tunjuk perasaan, lari dari rumah, meninggikan suara bukanlah jalan penyelesaiannya. Berbincanglah dengan ibu bapa adik-adik. Mantapkan pengetahuan mengenai bidang yang adik minati dan hala tuju selepas bergraduasi sebelum memulakan perbincangan. Paling penting, senjata utama jangan dilupa iaitu sentiasa berdoa agar Allah untuk memohon petunjuk dan agar Allah lembutkan hati mereka untuk merestui pilihan kita.


(:

Day 1-5

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam. Alhamdulillah sedang bercuti dengan aman di rumah. Malas nak menaip jadi tengok je lah gambar-gambar dari kamera hand phone.

Day 1- playing with my babies. [:

Day 2- Aina Maisarah~ The latest niece. Baru 3 bulan & dah pandai meniarap! 

Day 3- visiting my mom's ex-workplace

Day 3- Random picture of a nanny with her daun kari in the basket
(basikal moden, tak main dah sekarang basikal macam dulu-dulu tau :P)

Day 4- Let just call him/her Jellow. Keke. Dia duduk dalam rumah selalu sebab sukaaaaa sangat duduk dalam  enjin kereta. 

Day 5- Insaf dan sedar diri yang tak lama lagi nak masuk klinikal, jadi kena membaca & belajar le apa-apa yang patut. Tak sabar nak masuk klinikal~
Motto: Hati kena ikhlas supaya pesakit yang sakit jangan di biar makin sakit (fizikal & hati) lepas keluar dari Radiology/Radiotherapy department. [:

TAMMAT!

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salamm!

*tick tock tick tock* Menghitung jam untuk balik. Tapi malas sangat nak packing~ =_=" Now now, I have a few stories to be shared:

1. OSCE


OSCE stands for objective structured clinical exam. For clinical students like audiology, medicine, optometry radiology and others we are having this clinical exam where we'll do hands on on real patient *not-so-real-sometimes. pak cik pejabat biomed or maybe a senior which you admire so much because your lecturer kept on saying his name in front of you saying that he is the best during the osce and he was being so cooperative patient so you admire him even more* OSCE consists of a few stations, time given to complete each task is usually from 5-10 minutes.

I had both of my OSCE for Radiotherapy and Diagnostic Imaging in 2 days in row! Mahunya tak pengsan. I thought I would fail one station for my Radiotherapy because of the film was not showing thing it supposed to show clearly. Half of the class couldn't see the other shielding drawn on the film. So,after the exam I complained to my lecturer. Hoho.

The next day, Diagnostic Imaging osce. The most frightening osce exam EVER! During our mock exam, all of us failed. 17 of us. All. of. us. In the real exam, very fewwww of us pass all 4 stations. I am so nervous and anxious all day long after the exam, cannot sleep, I didn't eat well because I am afraid that I won't be going home on 30 June because I had bought the ticket. Kira berani mati la ni. Hoho. Gagal satu stesen kena repeat a week after that.

"Puan, bila result osce nak keluar?"


"Eh, saya dah emel dah dekat Cik Shima."
*terus rasa nak pengsan tapi sempat mesej Cik Shima tanya result dah tampal ke belum*
"Hanya * je yang lulus semua stesen"


"Saya dah beli tiket. hehehe"

"Budak nii.Kenapa awak beli awal sangat?"


*Sengih*
"Kalau ada gagal saya stay dan tiket tu burn dan beli baru.Huhu. Kalau saya antara * yang lulus tu saya balik!Hoho"

"IMPOSSIBLE!" *dan terus berpaling ke belakang*


*heart pounding super duper fast, hands fidgeting,anxious....*

"Mesti senior yang lulus~" (suara latar)


Lepas tu sebab dah sangat tak sabar nak tahu saya fail stesen mana, pura-pura le teman kawan hantar attendance ke lab.

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Alhamdulillah~! I did pass Diagnostic OSCE. Boleh kena heart attack tau kena gurauan centu Puan.=_="  For RT OSCE, I knew the result 1 week earlier and passed toooooooooo. Thank you Allah~!



2. A date with darlings. 


Izzah, Fara, Faten and me were having a date. Cinta 4 segi. :P Kami pergi program A Moment to Remember with Wardina Safiyyah and Oki Setiana Dewi bersama-sama. Meredah kegelapan malam dan bila sampai dewan hampir pengsan semuanya sebab kepenatan.Tolak tepi semua tu paling penting Subhanallah, both of them are beautiful inside and out. Kata-kata yang paling terkesan di hati,

Buatlah sesuatu perkara jika
- Allah redha kepada perkara itu
- Bermanfaat buat diri & ummah

"Bila berada di persimpangan, memilih untuk acting atau pembaikan diri, saya akan bertanya kepada diri adakah perkara itu memenuhi ciri-ciri di atas. Saya rasa saya perlu untuk melakukan pembaikan diri lebih dari acting buat masa ini. Saya telah lalai sekali terhadap hafalan al-Quran saya. Bila saya ketemu sama krew One Heart yang dirinya itu ialah seorang hafizah dan kami berbual tentang beberapa perkara tentang hafalan  saya rasa sedih sekali." (Mbak Oki)


Sentap habis! Dan saya pula bagaimana? Buku Bontranger boleh habis setengah dan hafal, Al-Quran berapa surah dah Tini? T_T How's your zikr today Tini? Did you religiously read new updates on Syria, Rohingya and Palestin? How much money did you spent to fulfill your lust over dunya things?

Soalan-soalan yang membangunkan hati yang lalai untuk kembali sedar bahawa dunia itu sudah mula masuk ke hati sedikit demi sedikit, terasa indahnya dunia yang sementara hingga lupa kepada akhirat yang kekal abadi. Jadi solusinya kena 'balance'kan balik dunia dan akhirat. Jom jom jadikan dunia ladang menuju akhirat~

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Setelah 'hujan lebat dan ribut petir' berada di tahun kedua, Allah datangkan pelangi~ Alhamdulillah, tak terhitung banyaknya nikmat yang Allah bagi kan membuatkan hati rasa jatuh cinta lagi dan lagi.  :D

TAHUN KEDUA TAMMAT!