Ms X-ray 2

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Scapula

Density

Velocity

Bennett's Fracture

Anteroposterior

Greater Tubercle

GUI <<< I never imagine that I'll actually learn this Matlab stuff. Blur tapi seronok sebab selalu masuk kelas macam bajet tau semua kan*LOL*, eh maksudnya ada idea la kan akan belajar apa hari ni tapi kali ni "WAHH! benda macam ni wujud sebenarnya." Tak pernah tau pun makhluk Matlab ni. Lepas belajar subjek ni baru tau nak menghargai kerja keras para pereka laman web, iPhone, Microsoft dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Terima kasih~ korang telah bekerja keras untuk memudahkan hidup kami manusia yang biasa-biasa ni. :P

Budak Engine & IT tabik spring dengan korang yang boleh menghadam benda alah bernama command. Tahniah!

Kenapa saya kena belajar guna Mathlab? Macam pelik kan, budak X-ray guna Matlab? Ada masalah dengan perancangan kursus UKM ni. Hoho. << Negatif sungguh.

Sekarang kan zaman dunia digital. Disebabkan ke'digita'lan mesin-mesin radioterapi & radiologi jadi saya kenalah tahu kan apa yang terjadi disebalik image enhancement dll yang saya buat. Tak nak la jadi orang yang tahu klik-klik Cik Tikus tanpa tahu apa-apa seperti robot.

Jarang sangat dah sekarang guna filem ni semua. Bilik gelap (tempat proses filem yang gelap dan cuma ada lampu merah sebab filem tak boleh kena lampu lain selain merah, nanti takleh guna. alah ni ala-ala bilik cuci filem kamera) dah makin gelap sebab takde orang nak guna. Hoho. Semuanya guna benda-benda canggih. Masa lab je suka suki masuk bilik gelap. Jangan tak merasa la kan. Nanti kerja 'Selamat tinggal Bilik Gelap' kalau kerja dekat hospital besar. Kalau~ Di mana-mana pun tak kisah, ada hikmahnya. Orang yang bergelap insha Allah lebih ikhlas & tabah sebab banyak benar rintangan & cabaran nak guna bilik gelap ni. Yang guna day-light processor/EPID (plate that records image) manfaatkan sepenuhnya teknologi yang ada & berusaha untuk hasilkan radiograph yang terbaik. Jangan sia-siakan kemudahan yang ada. Jangan susahkan radiologist & pesakit.

Sekian.

# Harap dapat kerja dekat Sarawak nanti. :D Tolong doakan.

Ouch!

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

"Berbaloi ke awak datang universiti semata-mata nak tidur? Di bilik pun tidur, entah-entah berjalan pun tidur. Awak kena ingat awak guna duit rakyat tau untuk belajar ni. Tanggungjawab tergalas di bahu awak. Ramai lagi kawan-kawan awak di kampung yang takde peluang macam awak."

Ouch *beribu-ribu kali* & insaf. Lama sangat dah tak dengar ayat sentap macam ni. That is why I love my Pathology lecturer, Dr Zariyantey. My adrenaline always rushes in her lecture because she loves to ask questions but still I love to be in her class. Tak ngantuk. Semangat buat ulangkaji sebelum & selepas kelas. Semangat untuk teruskan membaca buku Pathology yang memang lebih hebat dari sleeping pills. *exaggerating :P*

All my lecturers love to see our adrenaline rush, because they want us to do self-study and not just hear the lecture then okay times up! thank you Dr/Prof. Go to the hostel and just read the notes *yawning* without having an intention to even see the book cover because we THINK we are SMART enough to do last minute study and digest the book content from cover to cover.

Having them as my lecturers make me feel so blessed. (:

Peringatan penting dekat diri sendiri, bila rasa sangat malas fikirkanlah tentang tanggungjawab yang sedang dipikul. Tanggungjawab sebagai hamba, khalifah, pelajar, anak, bakal radiographer bla, bla, bla. Allah akan soal setiap satu tanggungjawab tu nanti <<< Ayat paling sentap selama-lamanya.

Never study to be successful, study for self efficiency (3 Idiots)

Setiap helai

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

"Jangan lokek untuk beli buku,sebab kita ni kan manusia. Lambat laun kita akan lupa jugak apa yang kita belajar. Kalau lupa senang la nak rujuk balik".

(Prof Jamal, pensyarah Pathology)

Saya risau pasal exam. BP & heart rate naik bila lalu tepi dewan exam. *lalu je pun sebab nak ke kafe, melampau kan*

Tapi, yang paling dirisaukan & merisaukan ialah bila saya lupa apa yang saya dah belajar. Selepas exam semuanya macam hilang. Adakah saya belajar semata-mata kerana exam semata-mata? *ouch menusuk ke hati*

Jadi, kena sentiasa betulkan niat Tini. Siang malam bersengkang mata di bawah lampu pendaflour (eh betul ke ejaan ni?), minum oligo koko sebab nak berjaga malam (saya je kot, orang lain minum kopi kan?) kalau sekadar untuk exam takde guna. Takde maknanya. Nada. Fullstop. Titik. Lakukanlah semuanya kerana rasa CINTA kepada ilmu. Pesanan dari penaja: Rajin-rajin baca balik apa yang kita dah belajar sebelum ni. Sayangnya kalau kita lupa perkara-perkara yang kita pernah belajar. Sayang sangat.

Semua ni bukan je untuk diaplikasikan kepada subjek-subjek universiti sahaja ye, segala surah-surah yang kita hafal, segala isi-isi kuliah agama yang tertulis dalam setiap helai buku nota, yang tercatat dalam mana-mana buku yang kita pernah baca pun kita kena sentiasa baca balik & amalkan. ^_^

Nota kaki: Exam Radiation Physics tadi 'terbaik' lah. Bertawakkal & doa je lah. >_<

"Apabila kamu membulatkan tekad, maka bertawakallah kepada Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah suka orang yang bertawakal kepada Nya."

(Al-Baqarah:159)

Mandrake

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~! *Just imagine that now you hear a Mandrake the screaming plant crying*

Tada! This is Mandrake. For those who are 'kipas-susah-mati' @ die-hard fan of Harry Potter of course you will know about this loud thingy which appeared in the Herbology class.

Oh well, I am not planning to rant about Harry Potter stuff. Okay, why on earth I suddenly write about this Mandrake is because I did learn about this Mandrake in real life, not in Herbology but in Pharmacology. In real life this plant is known is Mangrene, alkaloid anti-cancer agent *I am not sure about the spelling* Yeah, this is for real! I was like 'Did JK Rowling learnt Pharmacology?'

Thanks to my favorite-lecturer-of-all -time Dr Rohi who told us during the Pharmacology class. I am sooooooooooooo sad because today's class was his last lecture with us. I never felt bored & even sleepy in his class *lie, actually there was one time I slept for 15 minutes but that was the first and the last*. He always, all the time said 'Pharmacology is not just about you read the books and hafal, hafal and hafal those drugs name people. Relate it with your life.'

When he taught us on the anti-schizophrenia drugs he asked us ' Do you know a Beautiful Mind movie?' Then he made rolling eyes because 99% of us were 'haaaaah?' Hoho.

' So do you watch this this *bla bla*?' Again we were 'Haaaa?' Another rolling eyes.

'Do you know this drug is named by the Dewa Greek?' He even told us the full story okay.

He is so awesome! He did get his PhD during his early 30! He's aware of his surrounding; he covers lots of areas & knowledge. He is a student friendly lecturer and what made me sooo touched was, today his file was corrupted so he said to us ' I need to go to the office to get the file ok'. Blok H sangat laaa jauh ok dari DK1. He is so committed to his job.

His last word was ' Jangan belajar semata-mata kerana exam. Saya harap awak semua dapat aplikasi perkara yang saya ajar dalam hidup. Memang la you kena skor exam tapi life long learning is what really matter. Saya doakan you all dapat yang terbaik.'

I want to like him someday or better, yes maybe when UNIMAS opens their Allied Science Faculty I can be one of the lecturer kan? ^____^

Sheikh Abd al-Fattah Abu Ghuddah hafizahullah menegaskan di dalam buku beliau al-Rasul al-Mu’allim, salah satu daripada teknik mengajar yang diamalkan oleh Baginda sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam sebagai seorang guru, adalah mencegah kejemuan anak murid. -Pembaziran yang terhijab,SaifulIslam.com-

p/s: i wrote this post 3-4 days ago and i only have the time to post it now cos Jaring meragam.

Ms X-ray 1

Lead block

Profile

Name: Mr Lead Block

Mass : 20 kg

Function: Block high energy radiation, gamma ray and etc.

He is small but this heavy(!!!) lead block is the thing that I have to carry back and forth during my Fizik Sinaran experiments for every week *four lead blocks are needed for each experiment (4 x 20 kg = 80 kg). Perghh, luckily in one group there are 2-3 people*

The one we have in the lab is something which looks like a brick but it is made up of lead. Even though it is super duper heavy, we still need it to protect ourselves (yeah, the radiation might be very low but prolong exposure will increase the dose and become harmful to us!)

Quoted from Kak Maira in her post:

Honor my position as an ilm-seeker (though not always by choice)

Remind me about Abu Hurairah who walked under the hot sun for miles, scouring the empty desert in order to gain ilm.

Was he also the one who sold off the last of his property for papers (for him to write his notes) and lived by eating only 1 or 2 dates per day? And tied stones to his belly to combat his hunger?

For an ilm-seeker, hardship is something that we have to face in order to get the ilm. It is fine to carry the lead block forever if that is the only way to get the ilm Tini. Hoho. In the end, what I can say is : Bersusah-susah dahulu bersenang-senang kemudian.

LEAD BLOCK = MY 'TOY'.

Of Reminiscence

Assalamualaikum wbt.

13th April 2011

I have no idea why am I super duper active in updating my blog in this critical time. I should have spent more times on books. Tini, tomorrow is Physics. Tomorrow will be a nightmare. Trust me. Prof XY has high expectation on us. He will give questions which will make we feel like I-have-never-read-this-before or we will end up crying a moment we walk out from the examination hall. Last time, I think I would fail the exam. In the end, alhamdulillah Allah still has His Mercy on me and I got C.

***

Reading Kak Maira's blog makes me feel like digging into the past. Ouh. I am a naughty fellow back then. Hoho. I am not a fast learner (being positive by saying this instead of using slow learner). There were times I spent 2 hours to solve one Additional Mathematics question. You see how not fast (trying so hard to be optimistic) I am?

I had failed 90% of my Mathematics paper in Primary One till Primary Three.

I am never good at 'tulisan berangkai'.

I had no talent in music.

My History marks were never more than 62% for 3 years in row (Form 1- 3).

There was once I almost fail my Physics paper. It was so close. 40%. I NEVER EVER score an A.

I did lots and lots and lotssssssssssss of careless mistakes for Mathematics paper.

I easily forgot what I have read.

Procrastinator is my second name.

***

14th April 2011

Looking back at 2005, it was a year which turned my life 360 degree. Tini who always failed Mathematics in Primary One-Three and never gets more than 3A's in Primary 6 suddenly became one of the best students in my school. Alhamdulillah.

In 2006, I was shocked by my PMR results. Alhamdulillah. I managed score 8A and 1C (Arabic). For someone who is a not-so-fast-learner like me, it was really something.

In 2008, another shocking news. I did manage to get 9A's and 1B3 (Add Math). Most of my friends were shocked and of course happy to see my achievement. Even I myself did not believe it after looked at the board once. In fact, I kept on approaching the board for more than 3 times to make sure that I am not dreaming. Alhamdulillah. Allah had given me another chance to succeed again.

***

Reminiscence of the past gave a big impact on me. It taught me one big lesson: Even if you are slower than a snail, it does not mean you cannot succeed. You just need to double/triple up your efforts and have faith in Allah.

Snail race. Cute.

Now, I am still the not-so-fast-learner. I did spent days to finish off one topic particularly for Physics. Knowing my weaknesses help me to sort out a few solutions to overcome them.

1. Start my revision during holiday

2. Read books/notes before entering the class

3. Updating notes as soon as possible

4. Be an active listener in class since lecturers tend to give hint on the exam's question

5. For real, I did make analysis for each of my lecturers' backgrounds/habits in class. I even asked my seniors, lecturer and friends' from other courses. Hoho. Call me a stalker. The better you know your lecturer, the easier you can score. There is one of my lecturers who will only gives questions based on his lecture notes. My Anatomy lecturer will never do that, forever. Physics lecturer is an unpredictable person. My tutor is always being so nice to me (and to my friends too). Hoho.

Pen off.

Note: Today's Physics paper is just so-so. Still, I have no confidence in me. T.T Tawakal, tawakal.

"...kemudian, apabila engkau telah membulatkan tekad, maka bertawakallah kpd

Allah. Sungguh, Allah mencintai orang yg bertawakkal." (Al-Imran:159)

The Climb

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

source: The Climb, Miley Cyrus

Jika sudah berusaha, bertawakallah wahai hati. Engkau mungkin berjaya & mungkin juga akan gagal tapi sentiasa beringat dan yakinlah bahawa Allah memandang kepada usahamu.

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

Bittaufiq wannajah~ Selamat menduduki peperiksaan akhir semester~ ^_^

H_AT_S

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Hiatus mode: ON.

See you guys right after my mid-semester exam~!

Your dua' is highly appreciated. ^_^

Nikmat dan musibah

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

Saya tersadai di bilik dek kerana diarrhea. Dalam bahasa saya sendiri saya panggil diarrhea sebagai Hari Pembersihan. Boleh dikatakan kira-kira dua bulan sekali saya akan berada di dalam keadaan sebegini. Alhamdulillah, saya masih boleh bertahan. Mujur saja teman sebilik sudi membelikan ubat di farmasi. Shasha, jasamu akan ku kenang~ A friend indeed is a friend in need.

***

"Lisa mungkin tidak akan bersama kita untuk semester ni."

Saya seperti tidak percaya mendengar cerita dari seorang rakan sekelas. Lisa seorang yang ceria dan lucu. Dia berasal dari Terengganu. Seorang yang sangat bertanggungjawab dengan amanah yang diberikan kepadanya iaitu sebagai 'gadis fotokopi' di kelas kami.

Lisa menghidapi demam sejak 2 minggu yang lepas. Sampaikan di satu tahap dia tidak mampu untuk menghadiri kuliah lantaran badannya yang terasa lemah. Saya rasa risau kerana makanan pun tidak disentuhnya. Kalau makan pun hanya sesuap dua.

"Lisa dibawah pemantauan doktor dan dia tak nak bagitau apa penyakit dia. Dia sangat down sekarang."

T.T Rasa sangat sedih~ Kami semua tidak tahu di mana Lisa sekarang, samaada di hospital atau di rumah kakaknya. Kemungkinan besar dia akan balik ke Terengganu untuk mendapatkan rawatan di sana.

Menangguh pengajian bukanlah sesuatu yang mudah. Saya pernah berjumpa dengan seorang senior, Kak Dila yang terpaksa menangguh pengajiannya selama satu semester kerana sakit. Ada banyak masalah yang dia perlu hadapi selepas masuk semula ke semester yang baru. Dia perlu masuk ke kelas junior untuk semester lepas. Dia pernah mengadu tentang masalahnya kepada saya.

"Akak mungkin tak dapat nak duduk dalam kolej dik."

Saya sendiripun tidak pasti apa sebab utamanya. Seingat saya ianya ada berkaitan dengan statusnya sebagai pelajar tahun 2.

Baru-baru ni saya dikejutkan pula dengan penarikan diri Kak Dila dari satu program yang kami sama-sama terlibat.

Untuk Lisa dan Kak Dila,sama-samalah kita berdoa agar Allah menyembuhkan penyakit dan menitipkan kesabaran di dalam hati mereka. Amin.

Pesanan khas untuk diri sendiri, hargailah nikmat kesihatan yang Allah berikan dan redhalah dengan musibah yang Allah datangkan.

Prolog

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

Maybe it is still not too late for me to say Happy New Year of 2011! For muslims, our new chapters of life have started earlier which was on 1 Muharram.

I was celebrating the New Year at Dusun Eco Resort Pahang. It was a BLAST! *even though I did sleep instead of yelling 'Happy New Year! during the 00.00 o'clock'*.

What on earth I was doing there?

Mm, it was sort of a motivational camp by our Jabatan PDR. One word to describe it: BRILLIANT! An eye-opening. They had shown to us of the importance of critical thinking. Of how to practice it in our study and life. The LDKs and extreme activities captured my attention from the beginning 'till the end.

I can't show you the pictures simply because I have none of them. =.=" I will post it as soon as my seniors have uploaded them on FB.

p/s: All my second year senpai are awesome. I did not know that before this. I am so glad that Allah has destined me to know them closer.

Nanges.

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

Today's Physics paper reminding me of the Additional Mathematics paper last 3 years ago which was extremely hard! During the Physics exam, I am about to cry. I know nothing of what to write in the answer sheet for the subjective questions.

I could see the 18 marks fly away away and away from me.

I left the examination hall with a don't-you-ever-look-at-me-because-i-want-to-cry look. T.T

Nanges.

Sibukkkk.

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

Saya jadi pencuri sekejap. Hoho. Curi masa belajar je pun. Sekarang saya sudah balik UKM, KL. Semalam tidur memanjang sebab letih sangat selepas naik bas dan kapal terbang. Hari ni pulak sibuk memanjang. Pukul 8.30 malam tadi baru je saya habis training teakwondo. Maklumlah, uzur hari ni jadi boleh panjangkan masa berlatih.

Hampir semua muscle dan tendon sedang merajuk dan meragam. Sakit sini sakit sana. Memang sakit. Insya Allah lama-lama nanti dia baiklah. (: Nasib baiklah Allah ciptakan manusia ni boleh beradaptasi dengan keadaan tertentu, kalau takkkkkk akan sakit je badan ni setiap kali training. Setakat ni dah lebih baik dari dulu. Kalau dulu, selepas training tidur satu malam sampai Subuh (Buruknya perangai!Jangan tiru).

Moga kesibukkan ini akan menjadi tarbiyah ke atas diri saya untuk uruskan masa dengan lebih baik lagi. Lebih baik sibuk dari banyak masa lapang yang tak digunakan dengan baik kan? Jadi, saya sukaaaaaa jadi sibuk! (:

Jangan pernah rasa penat.

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

Awak sihat ke? Saya alhamdulillah sihat je. ^_^

Esok dah mula dah mid-semester examination. Gementar satu badan. Segala sistem dalam badan ni tahu esok ialah hari yang penting selepas di'stimulate' oleh 'nervous system' ciptaan Allah yang Maha Menciptakan.

Baru je tadi, saya dapat pesanan ringkas dari seorang sahabat.

study= x fail----1

x study = fail----2

1+2

study+ x study = x fail+ fail

faktorkan

study (1 + x) = fail (1 + x)

so,

study=fail

so, xyah study??

Tahu memang dia nak main-main di malam yang masih muda ni. Cuma nak cakap satu benda je, Allah lihat usaha kita. Mungkin lepas kita berusaha berhabis-habisan kita masih juga tak dapat gred/pointer yang kita mahu. Tidak semestinya selepas kita berusaha kita akan berjaya kan?
Tapi, setidak-tidaknya kita sudah mencuba dan Dia tahu kita telah mencuba.

Kita cuma hamba. Dialah yang Maha Kuasa menentukan segala. Jangan pernah rasa penat dan berputus asa apabila kita Dia tidak memberikan apa yang kita mahu dan bersyukurlah kerana Allah masih memberi kita apa yang kita perlu. Alhamdulillah. Selepas berusaha bertawakal dan berdoalah.
*Pesanan untuk diri khususnya*

11

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

I am counting the days of the examination day to come. It is only 11 days left. Until today, this is the second day I have studied the same topic of Physics.

Frank speaking, I am a bit, just a little bit, stress. I still not finish with my Physiology and Anatomy even though I've started to update most of my notes in the first week of lecture.

I am so scared to hear all the rumors that it is so hard to get an A for Anatomy! Thinking of the physics question that Prof Nazlim might ask is just enough to make my heart beating like crazy.

O Allah, may You shower us with rahmah and barakah in everything we do. Amin.

He knows

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

I think that I will never meet PHYSICS for my whole life after the SPM. It is thturns to be the other way around.

So, for the whole semesters I will learn PHYSICS.

Oh! Ya Allah, please ease the way for me and my friends.

Ameen.

Apabila diriku tersasar dari orbit.

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

In my previous entry just a few hour ago, I wrote about good things on the orientation week. Adat kan, setiap sesuatu itu ada baik ada buruknya. Cuma di sini saya rasa minggu orientasi UKM/MPP ini akan lebih mantap jika beberapa perkara ini dititikberatkan oleh pihak PC:

1. Solat jangan dilewat-lewatkan. Masa MPP memang solat dalam keadaan tergesa-gesa. Ramai yang mengadu.

2. Pergaulan antara lelaki dan perempuan harus dipandang serius.

3. Ada cheers yang pergerakannya melampau bagi wanita khususnya.

Ini bukanlah kutukan tapi cuma satu teguran yang diharap boleh diperbaiki oleh pihak PC di masa akan datang. Hari itu masa hari terakhir terlalu asyik dan lalai sampai terlupa hendak berfikir tentang benda-benda macam ini. Lalai sungguh saya ni ye. Astaghfirullah. Apabila berfikir balik masa di bilik, menilai itu dan ini baru saya sedar bahawa tidak semua yang PC cakap atau suruh buat itu betul. Dan, sebagai mahasiswa kita mesti membangkang jika ada yang tidak betul. My first lesson in UKM. Thank Allah to show me the right path. Moga saya tidak tersasar dari orbit lagi ya Allah.

Opss ah oh yeah~

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

I am in the new habitat now. Meeting new faces. I am trying my best to make myself comfortable at all the time. Eventhough this is not the first time I am away from home I still feel homesick. Miss my mom cooking. T.T

Orientation had ended officially yesterday. After all the bitter sweet time, I did realize how I miss the orientation week. The PCs were so nice to us ( they did yell at us, but that was a common thing right?). I miss the cheers thingy (some). One of my favorite cheers is :

Go Nasir go Nasir dont break my heart Nasir,
Opps ah oh yeah
Opps ah oh yeah( at this part there is a very cute hand movement)
Go Nasir!

Note: Nasir is stand for Kolej Tun Syed Nasir

During the 4th day of orientation, Datuk Dr Sheikh Muzaffar were coming to UKM Bangi for a talk. That was the second time I met him. Hoho. But at that time, I am not just looking at him from far, but I talked to him at a very short distance. Actually, I asked him a question during the session. I didn't expect that he would walk toward me and I am blushing like crazy. The camera was focusing at me. People were laughing at me after they seen my reaction. Funny~ A sweet memory to remember. I am trying my best to find people who took our picture that night. Hope I can find them soon.

Pen off.

Terima kasih ya Allah.

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

TAHNIAH!

Anda telah berjaya ditawarkan program pengajian seperti berikut:


KOD PROGRAM : KM13
NAMA PROGRAM : PENGIMEJAN DIAGNOSTIK DAN RADIOTERAPI
IPTA : UNIVERSITI KEBANGSAAN MALAYSIA (UKM)

This is what stated in the website when my sweet friend, Jenab helped me to check the result. Alhamdulillah. Banyak sungguh dosa saya ini sebab selalu je tak dapat kalau nak check keputusan guna online. Selalu je error. Sehingga sekarang saya masih gagal masuk ke website itu. Aishh~

Terima kasih ya Allah. Memang radioterapi yang saya mahu. Kak Zana pernah cakap yang radioterapi ini memang sikit sangat perempuan yang ambil. Kira macam engineering jugalah kan? Satu cabaran besarlah bagi saya. Mohon doa sahabat-sahabat moga Allah permudahkan segala urusan saya di UKM nanti.

Integer: Madam Rozitah

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

When I'm doing my Math just now, suddenly I remember how the first time I truly understand integers. Back then in Kolej DPAH Abdillah when I was in form 2 Putih, there was a pretty teacher named Madam Rozitah. She was very cheerful, optimistic and very bright. All of us love her. She put lots lots of efforts to make us understand every single thing she taught. We could see her passion in teaching us. Her sincerity and endless love made us felt special.

One day, I came to her and said,

Tini: Teacher, I still don't understand the integer thingy. It is so tough.

Madam Rozitah: Ohh. It's okay. I'll help you to understand it. You see, it is like this, if you owe me RM10 but you only have RM5. You can pay me RM5 first and the balance is RM5. So, the negative sign means hutang. When you owe somebody you must pay. Can you understand now?

Tini: Yes! Thank you madam. *big big smile*

-10+5=-5 Simple mathematical equation for most people but I consider it as a tough one. You may think I'm a dumb for asking that kind of easy question. I don't care. Malu bertanya sesat jalan kan? What I want to highlight here is my teacher's effort in making me understand the integer. I admit it was very very very easy question which sometimes people may say 'Are you a dumb?' when you ask them. I couldn't trace that kind of impression on her face that time which made me felt comfortable enough.

You see here, how a teacher give such an impact to her student. I will cherish this memory forever. So, for those who have ambition to become a teacher please be sincere because human like sincerity don't we? For Madam Rozitah thank you very much. Jazakillah. May Allah bestow you with His love and Jannah. Amin.

Yakin dan percaya

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

Alhamdulillah, pada pukul 7.15 petang saya selamat sampai ke Lapangan Terbang Antarabangsa Kuching. Cuti kali ini saya benar-benar berazam nak berdamping dengan buku betul-betul, tak nak macam dulu. Serius. PSPM semester 1 pointer kurang baik tapi alhamdulillah boleh hidup lagi kalau dapat 4 flat semester 2. Ya, memang payah nak dapat 4 flat sebab semuanya makin susah. Tapi, saya percaya dan yakin "Tini boleh~" Macam Vivien ( teman sebilik yang disayangi ) cakap, you can when you believe.

Sekali lagi kesyukuran dipanjatkan kerana saya berjaya memujuk ibu bapa saya untuk membenarkan saya belajar luar dari Sarawak. Bukannya saya tidak mahu belajar di UNIMAS cuma kursus yang saya minati tiada. Ya, banyak halangan dan syarat yang perlu dihadapi dan penuhi. Tapi, saya percaya dan yakin "Tini boleh~"

Insya Allah saya akan ambil optometri. Pilihan pertama optometri UiTM, mungkin juga boleh berubah. Untuk UPU saya letak, optometri, diagostik dan radioterapi, fisioterapi dan yang sewaktu dengannya. Berubah angin sejak keputusan PSPM keluar. Ukur baju di badan sendiri kata orang.

Semester 2 amat mencabar mental dan emosi. Program kolej sana sini. Kerja rumah sini sana. Saya mesti berusaha lebih kuat lagi dan saya yakin dan percaya " Saya dan kawan-kawan saya boleh~" Ayat yang saya selalu gunakan sebagai jarum penyuntik kembali motivasi ialah

Jika kamu menolong (agama) Allah, niscaya Dia akan menolongmu dan meneguhkan kedudukanmu (Muhammad:7)

Saya bersyukur sebab Allah uji saya dengan macam-macam masalah semester ini. Kerana semua ujian itulah saya rasakan saya jadi lebih matang. Ya kawan-kawan, saya bukan lagi Tini yang dulu ( tabiat makan tetap sama ). Maklumlah sudah 19 tahun, jadi saya mesti melakukan anjakan paradigma. Cabaran untuk menjadi daei bukan mudah. Kerap kali saya tewas, mengeluh dan menangis sebab gagal. Astaghfirullah, memang lemah kan? Saya masih baru lagi setahun jagung dalam bidang ini. Tetapi tidak apa, saya yakin dan percaya " Tini boleh~" .