Nikmat (:

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Salam.

Sabtu. Bas takde.

Saya paling tak suka keluar masa hari Sabtu. Terutamanya bila kena keluar sorang-sorang untuk selesaikan urusan penting sebab rasa malu nak ajak kawan untuk temankan. Masing-masing ada kerja sendiri.

Nak carik teksi bukan senang dekat kawasan kolej. Kalau nak teksi pun kena jalan kaki dan terpaksa lalu jalan yang sunyi dannnn menakutkan terutamanya bagi wanita.

Ada kawan cerita kat saya yang dia dan kawan-kawan dia terserempak dengan penagih dadah di sebalik pokok. Senior pun pernah nasihat jangan jalan sorang-sorang sebab bahaya.

Terima kasih ya Allah.

Kerana setiap kali aku perlu keluar bersendirian, ada sahaja teman yang tiba-tiba ingin melalui jalan yang sama.

Hakikatnya, aku tidak pernah sendiri kerana Engkau sentiasa menemani.

Terima kasih ya Allah atas segala nikmat yang Engkau berikan: Iman dan Islam. Ibu bapa yang penyayang. Sahabat-sahabat yang baik. Tidak terhitung banyaknya.

Sering aku alpa dan sedikit sekali aku bersyukur.

T.T

Of Reminiscence

Assalamualaikum wbt.

13th April 2011

I have no idea why am I super duper active in updating my blog in this critical time. I should have spent more times on books. Tini, tomorrow is Physics. Tomorrow will be a nightmare. Trust me. Prof XY has high expectation on us. He will give questions which will make we feel like I-have-never-read-this-before or we will end up crying a moment we walk out from the examination hall. Last time, I think I would fail the exam. In the end, alhamdulillah Allah still has His Mercy on me and I got C.

***

Reading Kak Maira's blog makes me feel like digging into the past. Ouh. I am a naughty fellow back then. Hoho. I am not a fast learner (being positive by saying this instead of using slow learner). There were times I spent 2 hours to solve one Additional Mathematics question. You see how not fast (trying so hard to be optimistic) I am?

I had failed 90% of my Mathematics paper in Primary One till Primary Three.

I am never good at 'tulisan berangkai'.

I had no talent in music.

My History marks were never more than 62% for 3 years in row (Form 1- 3).

There was once I almost fail my Physics paper. It was so close. 40%. I NEVER EVER score an A.

I did lots and lots and lotssssssssssss of careless mistakes for Mathematics paper.

I easily forgot what I have read.

Procrastinator is my second name.

***

14th April 2011

Looking back at 2005, it was a year which turned my life 360 degree. Tini who always failed Mathematics in Primary One-Three and never gets more than 3A's in Primary 6 suddenly became one of the best students in my school. Alhamdulillah.

In 2006, I was shocked by my PMR results. Alhamdulillah. I managed score 8A and 1C (Arabic). For someone who is a not-so-fast-learner like me, it was really something.

In 2008, another shocking news. I did manage to get 9A's and 1B3 (Add Math). Most of my friends were shocked and of course happy to see my achievement. Even I myself did not believe it after looked at the board once. In fact, I kept on approaching the board for more than 3 times to make sure that I am not dreaming. Alhamdulillah. Allah had given me another chance to succeed again.

***

Reminiscence of the past gave a big impact on me. It taught me one big lesson: Even if you are slower than a snail, it does not mean you cannot succeed. You just need to double/triple up your efforts and have faith in Allah.

Snail race. Cute.

Now, I am still the not-so-fast-learner. I did spent days to finish off one topic particularly for Physics. Knowing my weaknesses help me to sort out a few solutions to overcome them.

1. Start my revision during holiday

2. Read books/notes before entering the class

3. Updating notes as soon as possible

4. Be an active listener in class since lecturers tend to give hint on the exam's question

5. For real, I did make analysis for each of my lecturers' backgrounds/habits in class. I even asked my seniors, lecturer and friends' from other courses. Hoho. Call me a stalker. The better you know your lecturer, the easier you can score. There is one of my lecturers who will only gives questions based on his lecture notes. My Anatomy lecturer will never do that, forever. Physics lecturer is an unpredictable person. My tutor is always being so nice to me (and to my friends too). Hoho.

Pen off.

Note: Today's Physics paper is just so-so. Still, I have no confidence in me. T.T Tawakal, tawakal.

"...kemudian, apabila engkau telah membulatkan tekad, maka bertawakallah kpd

Allah. Sungguh, Allah mencintai orang yg bertawakkal." (Al-Imran:159)

Marathon

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Zupp, zupp, zupp. << Bunyi vacuum yang tengah sibuk membersih debu di blog.

Alhamdulillah, hari ni masih lagi boleh bernafas sebagai seorang Muslim. Tadi ada exam Anatomy. Syukur, masih lagi boleh menjawab dengan pantas dengan tangan yang asyik sakit dua tiga hari ni. Lapan essay dalam masa satu jam setengah. 5 essay kena lukis gambar. Memang kena kuat semangat dan stamina tangan kena mantap~

Semalam, saya dikejutkan dengan satu berita yang membimbangkan. Peperiksaan amali Biokimia yang sepatutnya diadakan esok ditunda ke 28 April. Muka saya terus pucat. Yelah, mana tak terconstrict blood vessel sebab tiket balik ke Sarawak pun 28 April. Masya Allah. Saya hanya mampu buat muka pasrah je.

BAKA dah tetapkan yang exam mula pukul 830 pagi sampai pukul 1000 pagi. Saya rasa awak sempat catch flight tu. -Dr XY-

Alhamdulillah. Syukur yang tidak terhingga sebab exam mula awal jadi insya Allah takde masalah nak sampai ke airport sekurang-kurangnya 40-50 minit sebelum masa berlepas. Nasib baik ada online check in. Jadi, boleh masuk terus ke boarding gate nanti. Kalau lambat nampaknya kena buat larian marathon. ^_^ Moga Allah permudahkan.

The Climb

.::ya Allah, bantulah hamba-Mu yang lemah ini.sesungguhnya aku tidak berdaya tanpa-Mu::.

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

source: The Climb, Miley Cyrus

Jika sudah berusaha, bertawakallah wahai hati. Engkau mungkin berjaya & mungkin juga akan gagal tapi sentiasa beringat dan yakinlah bahawa Allah memandang kepada usahamu.

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

Bittaufiq wannajah~ Selamat menduduki peperiksaan akhir semester~ ^_^